Thursday, December 10, 2009

Changes

Tomorrow is my last day in office. I am on vacation till the end of December. After that, I go back to India.

Surely I didn’t plan it this way. I wished my job would extend a little longer. But 4 months of uncertainty was long enough. And I don’t have a legal and valid visa without a job. Hence, I am left with no other option but move back.

Years ago when I was having difficulty in adjusting to life in the US, I had told a friend that the dream of succeeding in the US is like a baby. I don’t know if my baby will live. I don’t know how long my dream will live. That was 3 years ago.

Sure it lived a while, long enough for me to complete my masters and work for a year. But the dream had to die.

Right now the impact of what is going to happen hasn’t hit me. Very mechanically, I am wrapping up my work in office, planning to sell of stuff, and looking at deals for India. But realization is going to hit soon. I might get into school again and come back. But that is all in the future, and the future frankly looks quite uncertain. Right now the only thing I know is that I am going to be very busy the next few weeks wrapping up my life here.
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A chapter in my life will soon end.

sunshine

8 comments:

Rakhi said...

My best wishes.

Pavi!!!! said...

Hmmm… I can only imagine the thots going on in ur mind. Change is a difficult thing.. more so when they are forced.

Well..i truly believe that Everything Happens of the Best n for a reason. Wish you All the Very Best for the new chapter Sunshine! Be brave!

N meanwhile…enjoy ur vacation thru’ Dec. Merry Christmas! N Happy Holidays!

yugun said...

good luck. i know its a pain. have you tried getting a h1 from a desi company? some apply for that even if you don't have a job.

SJ said...

I am quite sad to read this :(
My Best Wishes for your future. I hope you come back to US again..

crazy said...

Sorry to hear about this. Good luck and hope you can come back :).

mintdesai said...

I am sure that you would find something interesting to do in life. Why don't you consider writing a novel or some collection of short stories. If Chetan Bhagat can make money, you will make millions if you can write a novel with your blog's quality.

mintdesai said...

I am sure that you would find something interesting to do in India. I agree that US still is the world leader in almost every field, however, nowadays India can provide good opportunities to anybody who is willing to work hard. Why don't you consider writing a novel or some collection of short stories? If Chetan Bhagat can make money, you will make millions if you can write a novel with your blog's quality.

Thoughts said...

Hey, don't feel bad...
I am more or less in the same boat like you. I read your blog regularly, but I've not commented till now.
Now, I feel your pain... All I can say is "This too shall pass..."
Radhika