Sunday, September 13, 2009

Downsizing

7 days ago, I couldn’t imagine in a thousand lives what my life would be 7 days from then. I was happily camping in Montana, never realizing that the next weekend I would be doing things different. For the first time this summer, I haven’t taken advantage of the good weather to do something outdoor. Instead, I’ve stayed home, finishing office work, looking for a job, and most importantly, packing. I am leaving home to relocate to a friends place closer to office, so I can spend lesser time and money on commute. G is out of town and let me stay at her place for as long as I need.

This is the first step I’ve taken towards downsizing and cost cutting. I have been packing clothes, food, and whatever I need. I don’t want to think about my apartment, because I miss it already. I have gone through the vicious cycle of being glum, feeling low, breaking down to tears, and then holding myself up and packing again. I don’t know what I will do with my apartment, maybe put it up for someone to take over the lease, sublet it, let it go, I don’t know. Ironically, packing has been fun during the numerous other occasions this summer, when I have gone hiking, camping, sightseeing, visiting other cities. Packing is definitely not fun this time. It is a sore, emotional issue for me.

I also cleaned the house and sorted out the clothes and shoes that I will donate to Goodwill. I have been meaning to do this for a while, but never really found enough time so far. I think I had acquired far more clothes and shoes than I am going to need. My apartment looks less cluttered now. My life has never looked more cluttered.

I thank everyone for your good wishes and your comments. Its been a difficult 4 days, but it feels good to know that there are people who feel your pain and pray for you though they personally don’t know you. I have cherished reading each and every comment.

Till next time.

sunshine

6 comments:

Sapi said...

Everything will be fine with time... i admire ur attitude of facing life!! God Bless!

Abhishek Khanna said...

Just hold on .. the bad phases wont last much.. the economy is picking up.. and surely you will be back to normal life soon.

Pavi!!!! said...

Awww… Good luck for the move!
N don’t forget “Everything Happens for the Best.. the Very Best”

Rakhi said...

I can see how tough it is on you. The only thing I can think of saying is this too shall pass Sunshine. Life never stands still. Who knows, maybe 7 days from now, you'll find yourself a fantastic job and will be writing us a celebratory bottoms-up post. :)

Best wishes and chin up girl!

Pritam said...

Hi Sunshine,

I have never commented on any of your blogs, but I am a regular visitor here. Just wanted to wish you good luck. I know it is tough being suddenly unemployed, but I am sure you will get though it soon. Keep fighting!

Subbu said...

Hi.. I've been reading you on and off since 3-4 years.. your grad school, your thesis, the many places you loved travelling to, your love for your mom, your fear of medical needles, your lab work(with some korean prof was it?).. Always loved the way you kept this blog going unlike Abhinav who was so infrequent.. and loved the name itself-sunshine.. you know whenever I clicked on your name on reader I knew there would be something nice interesting new or something old but in your own unique way of saying it.. something which would leave me with a nice goody-goody feeling as well.. So of course you'll get out his phase as well.. just thought I'd let you know another of your fans wishes you well:) [I think you'll get out of it without prayers also]